Life
Memory... is the diary that we all carry about with us.- Oscar Wilde I've always had a great memory. Ever since I was a kid, my parents would be flabbergasted at what random details I would remember from an experience. Of course, it is completely out of my control what my brain would retain, and it has been too inconsistent to be reliable. Even as I've gotten older, the ability has kept up with me for the most part. I will remember specific events or experiences in flashes, which is normal, but I can see them in my head and nearly relive them. This is how I remember basically everything, including words. If I've seen the word, I can probably spell it. It's not photographi...
In my last life update on here, I ended it with a lot of hope and excitement. In a lot of ways that ended up being accurate, for a short time. The last 4 months of the year, however have been hell. I’m not sure how to really write through all of this without getting overly personal, but I will try. This post is about my entire year though, so I will go over the highlights of my whole 2025. Spring The biggest focus of the first quarter was Galaxy Bound, my Star Wars podcast. We finished up our reviews of Skeleton Crew in January, and then straight into a ton more content to cover like Star Wars Celebration, Revenge of the Sith 20th anniversary, and Andor season 2 reviews. ...
Humans have a natural need for attachment; something to hold on to and call their own. This isn’t typically done out of control or even ownership of what they have, but for a sense of familiarity, pride, and even love. This happens with material objects, places, and even people. Especially people. “Attachment leads to jealousy. The shadow of greed, that is. Train yourself to let go of everything you fear to lose.”- Yoda, Star Wars: Revenge of the Sith This quote is from a fictional story about how the evil Darth Vader actually came to be. It was his fear of losing what he loved most, which turned him down a path to commit terrible acts to keep his the love of his life fro...
I hate being the guy that points out that time continues to exist, because it makes me feel old, which I suppose is irony. This year really has flown by though, and I just wanted to write up a post outlining things I've done so far that I'm proud of and what I'm looking forward to in the latter half of the year. Honestly, it's still strange that we're in 2025 at all. I remember that being a year people would joke about even just a few years ago, using it as a "futuristic" sounding year. One of my favorite game franchises, Call of Duty, had a game released in 2012 that had its story set in the year 2025, and while they tried to predict what it would be like and got a lot w...
This probably comes to a shock to anyone that knows me well, but I have a lot of hobbies. I have more hobbies or projects that most people even know of. I’m not just talking things like “watching TV” or “playing video games” - though those do count, I’m talking about activities that a bit more hands on and either have an end goal or continuous goals to achieve that give me that dopamine hit and then I can move on to the next goal. Typically this is seen in career settings, which is fair, but I’ve never been one to have a one-track-mind when it comes to my goals. Some people think that you’d be wasting time and energy by not monetizing your hobbies with an end goal either ...
Yep, I turned 30 years old today. It feels a bit strange. Not because of any magical or scientific mechanism for being alive for exactly three decades, but because I know that if my 20-year-old or 15-year-old self would see where I am and what I’ve done until now, he’d probably have a lot of mixed feelings: pride, disappointment, sympathy. For some reason I keep thinking back to my 15 year old self back in 2009. I was a freshman in high school. I was in a band with my best friends, and we had plans to put out an album and become a famous rock band. I based my future on what some of my favorite artists had done: get signed to a big label by the time you are 20, and spend t...
Apparently I write Christmas letters now. Do people even do that anymore? These post-mortems are like the emo-edgy version of a Christmas letter. Anyway, we made it. For a lot of people, this was the hardest and slowest year, for others it was super quick. For me it was somewhere in-between, but don’t for a second think I’m one of those naive saps that thinks the year is to blame for everything going on and things will get magically better when the clock strikes midnight...but it sure does feel that way. I’m going to give an update on me, as much as I want the entire internet to know, and then an encouraging send-off at the end to ring it in. Working as normal My 2020 sta...
I swore to myself I wouldn’t post about the issue that the world is facing, but since there’s a ton of negativity going on about it, I figured I’d do a 180 with these posts and give some advice. In the event that this is read far in the future for whatever reason, I’m referring to the COVID-19 pandemic that has swept the world and consequently, my country of the United States. It’s been a crazy experience thus far for everyone, but especially those in health care that actually deal with it first hand, but also those that are either out of work or suspended until further notice due to isolation orders. No matter a person’s situation, they are affected by it in one way or a...
Why is it that February is the shortest month of the year, but always feels the longest? It’s the worst. Even when I'm in a relationship for Valentine's Day, the entire month can be summed up in one word: bleh. It's the point in winter where we are tired of snow/ice/cold and we get teased of warmer days, especially here in the midwest. Growing up it was always the month that the semester went into full swing and we just looked forward to Spring Break. Most of all though, everyone is just tired of wearing their big puffy coat everywhere. I ended up procrastinating this post until the last day of the month. This year is a leap year, so posting this on the 29th will be kind ...
Welcome to 2020. I haven’t kept a blog in years, outside of some news posts about my music here and there. I decided to spare the world from my emotional ranting for a time. It probably wasn’t the best thing to put on the internet, but at least it helped, even just slightly. Fast forward to now, and I missed writing like this. Even if I know nearly nobody will read it, it’s a good way to kind of keep a journal that I can look back on in the future and either cringe or see how I’ve grown over time. There’s value in that, so my blog is back. My focus of this entry is to look back on last year a bit, 2019. Not a lot happened, but the things that did were impactful. It would ...